Letters

Over and over again I have realized how lucky I am. Last night was proof of that. No matter where I was I could always feel her. No matter where she went or what she did I could feel her from even twenty yards away.This morning I walked into work with tears streaming down my face and snot coming out of my nose (attractive, I know). For the first time in my two years of working at this shop I found that my co workers who are all men had absolutely no clue what to do with the crying tough girl who shows no emotion at work. My manager immediately asked me if I was sick or if something was wrong and all I could say back was "bad morning". He attempted to hug me but I couldn't even function enough to hug him back. He then told me to come to the back with him and as I followed him into the back room he told me to sit down and take a break and that if I needed to go home I could. After listening to him I told him that I was going to change and that I'd take a walk to the gas station and attempt to compose myself. My attempt was completely futile. My twenty minute walk and talk to my best friend on the phone proved to be of no help. Then she called me on my cell phone and as I ran to the back to take the call I could feel all of my happiness rush back in as her voice answered mine on the other end. It's still the most amazing sound in the world to me and there is no one I could ever talk to on the phone as long as I could talk to her. After the call my manager told me to go home because I looked horrible and I couldn't contain myself long enough to withstand five minutes of walking around.So here I am remembering last night. She told me she'd find me at the front gate until I realizaed she didn't have to, that I would have seen her coming from a mile away and absolutely no one else.

How amazingly lucky am I that I get to walk up to this beautiful woman and wrap my arms around her? How lucky am I to be able to call her mine and no one else's? How lucky am I that someone so incredibly gorgeous and amazing will stand and wait for me outside of the bathroom so that I can once again feel perfect coming back into her arms? Very, very lucky is the answer to all of those questions. Never in my life have I felt so amazing walking up to someone who is very obviously too good looking, gentle, loving, caring, and special in every way I could have ever imagined.

My epiphany, well, is that this life, working, eating, playing golf, all of it is worth every second of my time. But being with her, is worth every second of the rest of my life if I could give it. Yes, I'm young, but I guess when you know someone is that person for you, you know and there's really no questioning it. I've never felt so drawn or connected to someone in my entire life. She knows when I'm upset or happy even before I do, and that's truly a new bridge for me to have crossed. I have opened up to her completely and I have let her into every piece of my heart and it's been worth it every second, minute, hour, day and month. I'll be right here.