Saturday, January 10, 2009

I can't think of a title for this today....

I was starting to get really distressed at the fact that I couldn't think up a title for this post, so I gave up instead of stressing over it.

I cannot wait for school to start back up. Every single year I manage to get excited about school as soon as it's over with for break. But this semester I didn't even want school to end. I'm excited to see my roommates and my friends, to be able to go out whenever and wherever I want, and to just be on my own again. I have found myself to need to be independent although I have always found myself to be independent, now I know I just NEED it. I'm so excited about life in general now. I never thought I would say that, or even be in a place mentally after first semester to even be able to say that, but I can, and I have. I cannot wait to work my butt off this semester. Everything just keeps happening and it all seems to be amazing.

Each day I seem to grow happier and happier. I meet new people almost daily now and forge friendships, relationships, or whatever we are both comfortable with. My life seems to have taken a new direction, and it's one I chose and forced myself down all on my own. I've found so many great people, and I am so proud of myself for not giving up on who I am even though I have had countless chances to do so.

I feel like a motivational speaker, but I guess this is just what happiness feels like. True, trustworthy, and unconditional happiness, for once. For people in this world that think it unattainable, I am a true story of that alone. I didn't think attaining this was possible. And when I assess it right now, I know it all starts because of me, and ends because of other individuals, and I love that.

I'm rambling now. I can't help it. I'm bored. I'll post about something a little more interesting later. Because I can. But I'll still be bored then too, because I don't work tomorrow. Eww.

1 comment:

  1. you were not rambling...i am so glad life for you right now is amazing, it makes me happy...chain reactins are pretty cool!
    i really enjoy reading your posts
    -em.

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