Because I really wanted to...

So... The other day on facebook, a friend tagged me in a note that required me to in turn, write sixteen things people didn't know about me. Well, that list ended up fostering a list close to a hundred things. As I could only put sixteen down on facebook due to the requirements, I decided to place them here, because I find my list truly interesting. Here it goes, fifty things MOST people don't know about me.

1. I love writing in a dimly lit room, even though it's bad for my eyes.

2. I love the fifty cent packs of papermate, blue ink, rollerball pens that you buy at wal mart, I've still yet to find a pen I can write as fluidly with.

3. Children bring me the greatest joy. I am the pied piper for children, and I love it.

4. I hold a pillow when I sleep so I don't feel alone at night.

5. Being held in exactly the right way, with no words being spoken, is the fastest way I give trust.
6. I miss my oakley's every day.

7. My favourite composer is Beethoven, and my favourite composition or song composed by him is "Moonlight Sonata"

8. My only wish is to never feel pain.

9. I love my iPod. My love for it has truly reached the "true love" level.

10. Some days, I feel the wind shift in a certain way and wonder if it's my grandmother reaching out to me in some way.

11. I used to hate February and March. Now I look forward to making those months amazing for once.

12. I've learned to forget what a temperature feels like, as well as being sick.

13. I have a specific way I eat string cheese. It's not the same if I don't eat it the same way every time.

14. I love being goofy. I believe it is true insight into the kind of person I am when people tend to think me so serious.

15. I was abused as a child. I don't regret it, and I'd never change it. I am who I am now because of it.

16. I never give up on people, and I pride myself on that.

17. I wish I would have fought against my mother as a child.

18. I hate flying on planes, unless I have taken two dramamine so I am not truly conscious for the flight.

19. My favourite song is "Change" by Deftones.

20. I love socks. They keep my feet warm, and make me feel more secure. I change socks twice a day just because I can.

21. I love photography. I believe that it is a true art form that captures the essence of life for what it actually is, and I love being a part of it.

22. My favourite painter is impressionist Vincent Van Gogh. My favourite painting of his is his self portrait of 1879. The story behind him cutting off his ear, and the self portraits that followed, tug at my heart in an unimaginable way.

23. I miss having a relationship with my brother. I think that I would be truly whole if we were to reconnect again.

24. My favourite golf company is Ping. They are not to be reckoned with.

25. My senior year of high school I had 34 scars on my left arm and 40 on my right arm.

26. I have repressed memories from my childhood, and the surface five times a week, and then are followed by more repression.

27. My favourite book is "A Child Called It" by Dave Pelzer

28. Soft things like blankets and pillows make my world go round.

29. I love my car. It's cute, but tough as hell, and she loves me back.

30. I have an unhealthy obsession with tennis shoes.

31. I love the organization To Write Love on Her Arms (check it out) I believe that it saves lives and I am proud to wear their shirts.

32. Guitaro Hero is one of my best friends. Sad, but true.

33. I suffered from depression from the time I was six, until fifth grade.

34. Golf is the only pure thing in my life, and is based solely off of my own success or failure in each swing.

35. I fell in love with a girl in two months time, and only had her for a week. I still wonder how long I'll continue to love her.

36. I hate running, but I love going on bike rides.

37. I still love shooting hoops, even though I don't want to play basketball for a team.

38. I love orange juice.

39. I'm ADD, and the medicine I take to control it can take away my ability to have more than a meal a day.

40. I firmly believe that using tanning beds is a WIMPY and cheap way to get a tan. Not to mention unhealthy.

41. I cannot stand when people use letters instead of words in text messages. Example: "U" instead of "You".......UGH.

42. I love doing my nails, well, trimming them and making sure my cuticles are cut back. I love my hands and if they are not perfect, I don't feel right.

43. I organize and title my burned cd's by the date in which they were burned so that when I look back through them I know exactly what happened on that day to make me want to burn that cd.

44. If my bed isn't made before I get into it to sleep, I frantically wonder if it will bug me. And it always does.

45. I love McDonalds cookies and coke. In fact, I have an unhealthy obsession with those too. So unhealthy that as soon as I am done posting this, I am going to purchase both of those things.

46. Colby jack cheese, triscuits, and mandarin oranges is the best snack ever.

47. I love doughnuts. I can eat a dozen to myself in one sitting.

48. I love my alarm clock. It has saved my academic career many times.

49. I think I am an amazing kisser, and that I can floor anyone by one kiss.

50. Most days, I wonder how women miss me, when I have so much to offer. And now it doesn't even seem to matter.



I had many to choose from, and some day I will post the rest of those. But for me, it is work tomorrow, more healing to do from today's SHIT events, and at the end of it all, I must slap a smile on. Actually, smiling isn't that hard with the guys at my work. Ha ha, goodnight all.