Different year, different everything.

It's truly amazing to me how things have changed. I can't seem to get over it. Seeing the light and truth in things I never thought possible is the most amazing of them all. I finally see what this life has to offer me beyond to possibility of love and a life long relationship. Finally, I am happy by myself and I am content in being alone now. I have built a strong attachment to music and the lyrics I hear in the songs I play every day are what get me through each morning, afternoon, and night. I have finally seen what I need to see about my last relationship in both who I am and what that relationship had to offer me. In giving every thing I have to this person and having it put back in my face, I realized that I am an extremely good person and girlfriend. I have messed up in the past, but I know now the person I want to be, and I do everything I can to be exactly that person. The friends I have found this year have truly shown me what it is like to live life for myself, and I love it. They have been there for me on countless occasions, and have pulled me through every hard time I have gone through this semester. I consider myself extremely lucky to have the support system that I have had.

In looking back, I will always love my ex. Everyone's first true love will always have a place in their heart, and it's hard to keep from missing them. But when we look at who we are, sometimes the things we find in ourselves, are the strongest assets we have to offer and often pave the way for a bright future for us without our first love. Being left gave me the insight I needed to become a better person, and I know now, that I will never cause someone the pain I have felt. It is my job to treat the people I love with the utmost respect, so that they never have to wonder how I truly feel about them. This is the year, month, day, hour, second, that I learn to help every one I can, and to expect that I am treated in the same way. This is the time where I realize I am more than someone that can be taken advantage of. This minute I say no more to being walked on, stepped over, or looked past. I am me, and that has always been good enough for my family and friends...now it is good enough for me.