Okay. So. I am still on a high from the note she left me. I love her more than anyone in this world can possibly comprehend. I want to respond so badly to her, to show her in an incredibly adorable way that I still love her and that I am waiting for the day I can talk to her with no legal action being persued. For the most part I am held back by the idea that I could get into serious trouble for responding back, no matter how much I want to. I still may do it, I haven't decided yet. I just need to let her know that I'm here and that I'm not moving on. Not until the day she either tells me she has, that she's found someone else, or that she doesn't want me anymore, or at least until she gives me some reason that she no longer wants me to hang on to her. I won't let someone else make that decision for her. I believe in having a voice of your own and I don't think it's fair when other people suppress that voice and the feelings behind it in order to get what they want. It's just not right.
Either way.... I'm still so in love with her. To the point that if someone else were to like me I'd shut them down in a heartbeat. I announce to everyone that I meet for the first time that could potentially have feelings for me at some point in the future that I am waiting for someone else so that they immediately release the idea of my as more than a friend from their conscious thinking.
I told her there would be no one else, and there won't be.
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